i wonder why the fuck
i get this kinda rubbish
every two three days.
treating the house like a hotel
treating family as transparent
tuning my body clock wrongly
watching soccer in the night
using comp in the day
waking up too late cos i slpt late
actually everything practically.
i really dont understand at all
even my 24hrs are under her control
this is insanely ridiculous la ._.
she goes shouting after me
when i watch soccer and slp late
when i wake up late in the aftern
when i use the comp for my work
when i eat dinner at 9
apparently i tink im living a robot life
with no control over anything
much less how i use my time.
&there she goes ranting abt me
idling my holidays away totally.
and as if i dont know the fact that
im idling my life away all day long.
my life is screwed up im feeling pissed off
everytime she mentions these things.
i dont need you to keep reminding me
pls lemme take control of my own life
and bear the consequences behind
everything that im responsible for.
midyrs in a week the bks left untouched
some pages of notes missing/ unfilled
no mood to start on anything at all
praying hard i will hopefully finish everything
passing mye has become more or less
wishful thinking cos i aint wrking hard
but studying has become sucha chore
that i get so drained of my energy
even when i jus start reading. =/
imissyoulove
