yes results are out today officially retained, expected and stuff. then it all comes down to pride.
and how i will miss every single part abt being 0821. gosh ive been feeling bad abt it for as long as it is so it doesnt matter that much anymore cos it has become an undeniable fact that cant be refuted.
i feel like sucha loser right now cos i know what hurts the most and being unable to keep whats been sustaining my happiness for the past 8mnths kinda made things worst. needless to say, highly frustrating.
waking up and dragging myself to sch will become sucha chore cos i aint doing it for the same reasons now. my class or 0821, how should i even phrase things. so many things running through my mind at the same time.
class of 2010 NYJC thats whre it all ends. LKS had to rub it in when he gave baq results slip. but i gotta admit what he said was 100% if not more than 100% true.
he was super correct in anything he mentioned this evening. i cant bear to leave my friends. maybe there has been too much things happening at the wrong time. will i be able to cope with whatever's coming my way.
maybe its his tone or his wrds idk. somehow it triggered the tears. im sorry i couldnt hold it baq. i promised myself i will nt cry today and face everything bravely. but ohwell at least i stopped crying after like 3mins i swear i rly regretted.
i made eileen cry with me and ive been spacing out too much thinking of how to break the news to my parents. thinking of how we used to study tgt during promos omg dun get me started on that.
and when i got home after hanging out with caro anna pam sam eil at amk hub jus nw, my mum was not in sucha good mood zz. so yah i hope i can rly get tis over and done with soon enough.
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